New environment

Once again I'm blogging in a NEW foreign place. University! Who would've thought time would fly by so fast xD HAHA !! It was pretty horrible during the first week. Socializing, getting to know each other, adapting to culture. Really another experience. I can't even count the amount of party that has happened! Nah, I'm just exaggerating. Parties here are just unbelievable. It just goes out of hand! I still haven't got used to that. Anyway, the first day of school has finally kicked in. I have to say many thanks to dear CIC back in Hamilton for giving me hell. This does not feel any like it at the moment. I get to wake up just on time for class. Really a privilege! I can say that I would not get lost on campus ground thanks to all the orientation programs! Its been a great great opportunity and exposure. Hoping for the best to come :)

Goodbye !

I'd make you stay if I had the chance to

Hello once again. Its my second time blogging in such a short period of time. Wasn't it like just the day before? Oh well, everything has been so cooped up in my mind and obviously there is not really many people who knows what I am going through. Well I can actually say no one. But its good too, I don't want to be bothering people like how I used to before. That's really bad. I know the feeling too. Today, I got another offer from another uni. I can say its really good to get it from there. Thank God for that. Just that my problem is I'm really reluctant to go to the other one that I've registered to. At the same time I know my parents have spent alot and its not a good thing to just terminate it. I'm still bothered because of yeah. Gosh I just wish everything can be erased in a much easier way. Its killing me ....

If only we were together

In another life...

Hello blog,

Back in Malaysia till .. August. It has been a week plus since I have been here. I'm really happy that I could catch back all the food I've missed for the pass 6 months. Definitely catched up with most of the things I missed.Well not entirely, but I'm happy to be able to live the life I was living 6 months ago. Shopping and eating and nagging and texting. I'm pretty satisfied with that. Not mentioning staying up watching Korean shows and dramas.

The reason of blogging today.. It has finally hit the head on me. I thought I could hold on to what we have missed on but I was so wrong. So very wrong. It is sad to say that 3 years of liking you has just washed down the drain like this. I don't know if it was painful for me to leave your toy at the place that I'll hardly visit again. To throw away that shirt you gave me knowing that I'll be unable to fit into it. To come back and realize there was NO welcome message. NONE. To find out that even if you knew I was coming back, you never found ways to make the both of us able to catch our favourite artists concert together. All those things you said before were just words of comfort. And I actually thought those words were words of hope, to make me not think too much of it when we are gazzilion miles apart. Even time difference was a difficult thing. I was willing to stay up just to talk to you. Spending money on those long distance calls, but those were all me and my imaginary world. There was no future to it and I have finally woken up. I can't even find myself to cry because of this even if I know my heart is so broken...

you were actually the one i loved the most even if you did nothing to me, getting to know you and talking to you was my only joy..

I wish...

He said it today. Hah.. Well, at least it was a straight off answer. Moving on even I know how hard it is.

new start

Hello once again :)

The summer semester has finally started. What do I have to say about my new summer semester? Calculus & Vectors presenting Mr. Lee (seriously, he is not my father) now let me start about this AWESOME teacher who loves to torture his students with loads and loads of homework. Seriously, with the hectic school routine of 8 30 to 5 . Not mentioning trying to catch the bus at 7 in the morning. Long waiting lines during lunch that you don't even feel like eating. 3 hours and 15 minutes staring at only 2 teachers. Calculus and International Business. It is good that my Business teacher is pretty funny. Its like a mood calmer to the first two hectic classes. Sigh.. Tired.. I should catch some sleep for this weekend. Test 1 for Cal just ended. Test on business next week.

I love you blog :)

If its not really your thing then tell me

Why hello again my dear left alone blog :)

Its been about 3 months since I last updated this page. I can say that I have finished my first semester successfully. Well, something like that but yeah its finished and tomorrow I'll be.. starting my summer semester which is somehow not what I'm looking forward to. The holidays were great no doubt and I certainly did enjoy it.. But thinking of a summer semester with an everyday class that lasts from 8 30 till 5 ? I can cry just to think of the hours I'm studying two subjects. Seeing the two same teachers everyday. But what much can I do but to continue to work hard in order to continue what I have just started here :) Well moving on to my inner feelings, I do not know where to start. I thought everything will be great when I arrived here well that seems to be the case but I do have that long dreaded feeling of home. I do miss you a great deal. I'm saying it from the bottom of my tiny heart. I miss you till death. I miss talking to you and waiting for all those silly short text messages you give me. I miss how we used to have weird but special names for each other and I knew after coming here, none of this will happen again. Its like the wind blowing away flour. So fragile and easy. But having to know of such would happen, I took it all in and endure it myself because I know that you will never think this deep. Its a woman's problem. Its myself. I can't force somebody into something that they would not want to continue. Its my problem to forget whatever that happened because I know you left no memories. It was forgotten just as I boarded the plane, maybe it was kind of a relief for you.

I have said what I feel like right now. I'm just looking forward to more adventures here in the land of maples.

Goodbye :)

greetings

New place, new environment, new people. Some people are just hard to predict in this world. What might seem good on the outside may not just be what you think it is. Some times i think of the many good stuff I had back in Malaysia compared to now, I do wish I could turn back time and enjoy the most I could. No doubt being here is not that bad but what I really miss the most was the slight of personal freedom I had back in the days where I used to stay in my room and get to use my internet freely, without worrying about other people's space likewise their sleeping routine and stuff. What I find to like about here? I haven't really found it yet. I somehow liked the food back in Malaysia, the culture and system we used to have back there. Some times I feel like I'm leaving in my own dream. I don't realise how many miles away am I from home. How long will it take to the place where I belong. But yet again, I will try to adapt myself into this new place. To find my own new grounds and try to fit in. . . . .

the starting of a journey

hi blog,

i'm typing from my mobile today and i thought.. Hey! I haven't visited this place for a long time x) i'm in the midst of my test still whiles everyone is actually having a fun time now, i'm not typically complaining about it but i find it somehow a little pissing off because i'm just stuck at home. And i've actually lost the mood. Its certainly not good to feel this way, so i'm trying really hard right now. Heh! Yeah? Trying hard? Like blogging? Nice try x)

Anyway, the day has come where my hopes and dreams and most importantly future lies ahead. I'm finally at my last few days of high school and probably another 2 months and a little bit more days before i actually turn 18. I know right! I'm so old. Not really.. Actually.. Haha!

Well, the sad thing about now is that i realise i do not have much time left at the place i'm in right now. No, i'm not writing a suicidal note. Well, people would know what i'm talking about. That is if they do read this post.. I just realise that i haven't let go off one person until today. Its been about 3 years i think? Yeah, and this isn't really a good thing. Well thats because our days are numbered. I sometimes wish God would give me some fantasy imaginations to come through and make this the memorable month. But it seems like everything is just normal. I get butterflies now and then. I mean, ohmygosh!!! I'm still getting butterflies at this kinda age.. But its true. This is the kind of impact i get from you but i don't think you seem to see it. Or maybe you know but you're just trying to avoid the best you can. Like 'oh, she ah! Run away man.. I'm terrified' i really don't know what the situation is like now but i certainly wish that this would come to my liking. Thats only to MY liking. Maybe you're liking it the way it is now? I don't know.

Its good to let some feelings off here because i know this is rarely read by people. And i'm glad i've spoke my mind here. I should head back to some chinese work now..

Goodbye blog and i love you.

Every word feels like a shooting star

I'm back to this page after a longgggg time. SPM is finally at the corner of all corners. it was from starting of the year to mid year then trials ( i was going insane ) and its finally arrived (already insane) !! i cant seem to just get those things cramming into my head which is really bad cuz i certainly had more enthusiasm during trials like " YEAH ! IM TOTALLY GONNA DO THIS ! " but now.. its bad to have terrible stamina cause its really not good at all :X

anyway, just a few days ago, something happened. I could say its a really happy thing cuz well i'm in that state where my heart flutters into the air and dances in the sky with some melodious music xD IM EXAGGERATING ALRITE ! but seriously, its like we've lived in our own world. And yeah.. I guess it'll take more time. Well, it certainly needs more time, with all the changes i guess.. But its good? i hopeee xD


its about time for me to go. I dont have much to write anyway xD


GOODNIGHT !

meh meh meh

HO ! David Archuleta has a new album ! Well its not officially out but it is certainly good. One of my favourite is stomping the roses. Okay, the title might seeem a little off. but the beat xD HAHA ! super nice. SPM is coming up soon. trials and college. pffft. the beauty of being old? HAAAA~ yeah. anyway.. gotta go x) have a great sunday !

David Archuleta – Stomping The Roses Lyrics

Wasting time, just going mindless
Watching your charades
When you were younger, did it occur to you
10 years from then, you’d act the same age

I cannot carry on this way
Although I’ve carried all your every little thing
Carry me away

Did you feel like stomping the roses
Smashing out all the feeling inside of them
It’s bad business
The way you’re stomping the roses

I was flipping channels on my television
And it made me feel unwell
One of those complicated soap operas
I almost felt like I was watching myself

I cannot carry on this way
Although I’ve carried all your every little thing
Carry me away

Did you feel like stomping the roses
Smashing out all the feeling inside of them
It’s bad business
The way you’re stomping the roses
Everyone knows it

I know I know I know I know it’s over
And I know I know I know I’ve
Always been your token nice guy
I know that you rule your whole world
Thought I could live in it
But I just can’t

You know you’re stomping the roses
Smashing out all the feeling inside of them
It’s bad business
The way you’re stomping the roses
Everyone knows it

Stomping the roses
Smashing out all the feeling inside of them
It’s bad business
The way you’re stomping the roses

Stomping, Stomping Yeah
Take it easy, yeah

come clean?

some word that really snapped me. I tried coming clean. I tried telling you the things that I wanted to tell. But again and again, its either wrong, or i hear screaming and banging next. DO you think its soooooo fun hiding the things inside. Not telling ANYONE how i feel, not telling ANYONE how i manage to do this and that. The only thing that comes up to my mind when i tell you something is, 'No Point' Is it my fault that I'm like that? Is it my fault that you've brought up a stranger in the house??


Just so you know, a stranger wouldnt let you touch their phone and let you go through EVERY SINGLE TEXT MESSAGE!

Kissin' You

One of those songs where i play it over and over again xD HAHA !! August is ending. Isn't that fast eh?

Kissin' You - Miranda Cosgrove

Sparks fly, it's like electricity.
I might die when I forget how to breathe.
You get closer and there's no where in this world I'd rather be.
Time stops like everything around me is frozen,
and nothin' matters but these few moments,
when you open my mind to things I've never seen.

'Cause when I'm kissin' you my senses come alive.
Almost like the puzzle piece I've been tryin' to find,
falls right into place, you're all that it takes,
my doubts fade away when I'm kissin' you.
When I'm kissin' you it all starts makin' sense,
and all the questions I've been asking in my head,
like, Are you the one? Should I really trust?
Crystal clear it becomes when I'm kissin' you.

Past loves, they never got very far.
Walls up, made sure I guarded my heart.
And I promised I wouldn't do this 'til I knew it was right for me.
But no one, no guy that I met before could make me feel so right and secure.
And have you noticed I lose my focus,
and the world around me disappears.

'Cause when I'm kissin' you my senses come alive.

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/kissin-u-lyrics-miranda-cosgrove.html ]

Almost like the puzzle piece I've been tryin' to find,
falls right into place, you're all that it takes,
my doubts fade away when I'm kissin' you.
When I'm kissin' you it all starts makin' sense.
and all the questions I've been asking in my head,
like, Are you the one? Should I really trust?
Crystal clear it becomes when I'm kissin' you.

I've never felt nothing like this.
You're makin' me open up.
No point even tryin' to fight this,
it kinda feels like it's looooove.

'Cause when I'm kissin' you my senses come alive.
Almost like the puzzle piece I've been tryin' to find,
falls right into place, you're all that it takes,
my doubts fade away when I'm kissin' you.
When I'm kissin' you it all starts making sense,
and all the questions I've been asking in my head,
like, Are you the one? Should I really trust?
Crystal clear it becomes when I'm kissin' you.

Something Bout Love.

Every night it’s all the same
You’re frozen by the phone
You wait, something’s changed
You blame yourself every day
You’d do it again
Every night

There’s something ’bout love
That breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh
It sets you free

There’s something ’bout love
That tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like the rain
It’ll bring you to your knees
There’s something ’bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh…
But don’t give up
There’s something ’bout love

When you were young
Scared of the night
Waiting for love to come along
And make it right
Your day will come, the past is gone
So take your time
And live and let live

There’s something ’bout love
That breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh
It sets you free

There’s something ’bout love
That tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like the rain
It’ll bring you to your knees
There’s something ’bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh…
But don’t give up
There’s something ’bout love

Don’t fight
Don’t hide
Those stars in your eyes (in your eyes)
Let em’ shine tonight
Let em’ shine tonight

Hang on
Hang in
For the ride of your life
It’s gonna be alright
Hold on tight

There’s something ’bout love
That breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh

There’s something ’bout love
That breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh
It sets you free

There’s something ’bout love
That tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like the rain
It’ll bring you to your knees (to your knees)
There’s something ’bout love that breaks your heart
Whoa oh oh oh…
But don’t give up
There’s something ’bout love

Whoa oh oh oh..
Set’s you free
There’s something bout love
That tears you up
Whoa oh oh oh
You still believe
When the world falls down like the rain




i didnt wanna miss the opportunity to post it up, david archuleta has risen once again :D :D

i miss him so much. REALLY !

♥

laughter is the best medicine

Haaa ~~ I left this blog all alone during the school holidays and it is already ending ! "so fast? :O" haha.. yes, it is already ending. this two weeks, i was able to take a break, but that might not seem to be an ideal thing because you tend to get lazy and not want to do anything. well, thats for me. I dont know about you though.

I also realised, that ___ can hardly tolerate people anymore. Actually, __ cant seem to click with anybody. Nowadays, its been weird because ___ JUST CANT communicate with people. ___ get all pissed, and just chucks ___ thing away. Maybe ___ patience has reached its certain limit. everybody have boundaries dont they. so i guess its pretty understandable for ___. But, for some odd reason, ___ can talk to ___ the most without feeling ___ . how. ironic.

Lately, my mum has been driving me insane, i remember i used to complain and ramble on how much i hate it, but i've tried to lessen them now. its not easy, wait, since when life and things were that easy anyway xD haha

Well, i think thats it, just a few screen caps about what i do online. i was bored anyway xD

soribada :D


TWEETTTDECKK :D :D


taaaa~~

Hello :D
the holidays have finally arrived and will last for the next two weeks. three weeks of exams has been such a pain. well, i cant complain much. isnt that what students are supposed to do anyway.
study

get good grades
get into college
graduate from uni
get a good job
earn the money
make your parents proud

isnt that what all parents hope and wish for anyway. its probably their hugest and largest pride to see their children being successful. hopefully i could do some productive things during the hols and probably buy some good storybooks to read. oh cant wait cant wait.
I wouldnt talk so much, gootaa goo :D

OUT !

i'll miss school for awhile